I still have a lot of nervous energy and feel like I need to do something constructive with it. So far this week, all I've managed to do is finish cleaning out the closets and cabinets. I still have a few boxes from the attic to sort and freecycle, but I've gotten rid of tons of the junk that has been sitting around the house. I did also finish some of the cleaning I've been avoiding for the last few months. I don't know how much longer this feeling will last, but I know I need to use it for good things.
It's amazing what a little sleep can do for your body. I've been unable to sleep for more than about 2 hours at a time for a week now. Well, last night I put in earplugs and covered my eyes and made sure Pete was going to take care of the girls if they needed anything. I was able to sleep for about 10 hours last night! Yay!
For those of you who don't know, I've been going to various doctors for about a year now for several health issues. We've gotten most stuff under control, but I still have some digestive issues and am waiting for a referral to a G.I. doc for a scope and some other tests. I also went to a therapist on Monday and he said he thinks I'm bipolar. He referred me to a different psychiatrist for a diagnosis and long term treatment. Nothing is official yet and he hasn't changed me from depression medication to bipolar medication, but he probably will. I go back on Monday to see the first psychiatrist and will keep seeing him weekly until I can get in with the new guy on April 20. I'm not entirely surprised by this, but it is a little shocking. I am glad that my primary doctor was able to recognize that I needed some help and sent me to see the other doctor. If it is bipolar, it's still fairly mild which is good. It's apparently easier to keep under control if you catch it early.
Today was a busy day for our family. My cousin had to have heart surgery and came through beautifully, thank G-d. All of our family was in town, but the young kids couldn't be at the hospital. Since I had to stay home with my two anyway, I volunteered to keep the other kids that needed somewhere to be. I had my two plus 7, 8 and 10 year old boys and a 5 year old girl. The kids were all VERY well behaved and we had a fun day of playing outside. Needless to say, I'm very tired tonight, but it was a great day overall.
About 30 minutes after putting the girls to bed tonight, daddy man went to go make sure they were covered up because it's chilly tonight. He came back in and told me I had to check it out because they were so cute. They started off in their own beds, but apparently Pita Pocket wanted to sleep with her big sister. So adorable, it's these times that help me remember that I love being a mommy.